Through out my childhood and high school life I was an athlete. I did almost everything, Gymnastics, soccer, basketball, softball and dance (jazz, tap and ballet). Even though I was active most of my life I had a food addiction issues. I have never told people this or admitted it. I can remember it all the way back to when I was 5 years old. I would get so hungry from gymnastics I always wanted more. Then in 4th grade I quit gymnastics after we won the Level 6 State Championships. Why did I quit? . . Well I felt like I was going to get any better because I could not do anything on bars for Level 6. Therefore I would have to repeat it. Anyways, once I quit I noticed I didn't have many friends out of gym. And that I had been missing out on TV. . . NOW don't get me wrong I was 9 years old and thought TV was the best! That is when I started sitting around the TV and eating snacks after school for I didn't have friends to hang out with.
Gradually I got some friends but no friendship stuck for years. Some cases they did, though it was more like we are acquaintances and acted liked we knew everything about each other when we "played" once in a while. Also I was still participating in recreation sports. Mostly dance, soccer and basketball. My Mom had tried to get me to play softball cause I was good but I thought the game was too boring and needed continuous activity.
In Junior high, I tried out for Murray Max's first girls competition soccer team. I made it and loved every minute of it. I played with Murray Max till I was 18. I had also been able to make the Murray High School Basketball team when I was Freshman. As well I was in Murray Community Dance top teams, where we would have 3 classes a week. One for each style. So I was active and never really had to watch what I ate.
In High School, I made the basketball team my Freshman and Sophomore year but didn't tryout after that. I had also made the JV/Varsity Soccer Team all 4 years. That was one of my passions. Still is. I started to kind of worry about my weight around this time but never fully committed to losing weight head on. There was too much to worry about when you are teen. hahahaha! Dances, friends, boys, classes, teams and more socializing. There was only one time I lost weight in High School. Jon, my current husband, and I broke up right before the end of our Junior year. He was my first love and it hurt me. I didn't notice till about 3 days after the initial split that I had not eaten at all for those 3 days. I was so emotionally drained that it was put on the back burner. In those 3 days I lost 15 pounds.
It was a good thing for it was not intentional. I didn't continue to not eat. I just kept trying to figure out ways to get him off my mind. Which turned into working out. Thank goodness we had soccer conditioning in the mornings 5 days a week. I got really fit for there was a lot more cardio and running done during conditioning. And there was the one week of soccer camp. But I did have a job at Pretzelmaker, which we were allowed to have as many pretzels as we wanted while we were working. And they are addicting!
When graduating high school I weighted 135. Jon and I got back together after high school, as you can see. We moved in together and started to get comfortable. When we started living together it was lets stay at home and watch a movie or invite people over here and hang out. Rather than go outside and do something like in high school. We got married a little over a year later and were married for 3 years before I became pregnant with Natalie. When I got pregnant with Natalie I weight 175. I had gained 40 pounds over the 4 years out of high school. Even though I joined a gym and went every so often and even got a personal trainer once. It seemed like I would have my good days and bad. That never turned into results.
Well now after having Natalie I gained 30 more pounds coming in at 205. I have been trying to get the weight off for 2 1/2 years. I have had some success and lost about 15 pounds but then gained it right back.
With my life schedule now I need to take charge cause I don't have Jon at home most of the time reminding me on what I want to accomplish. So I am looking into other things with eating and grocery shopping to help me out.
In 92 days from today I have a trip to Vegas with Jon and 2 very close friends. That is 13 weeks. If I lose 2 lbs a week, I could be 26 pounds lighter. I am going to take to heart the challenge to get there. I even have decided that with every pound I lose I will give myself $10 towards some new clothes. If I reach the goal of 26 pounds I will have $260 for some new clothes. :)
I need all the support I can get! Please if you have any advice, info or encouragement I will truly love your comment.
Today is a new day and time to get in control of my life style.
loves and smiles,
Mo
May the force be with you. :)
Hey! I've recently been working towards similar goals and blogging about it! Lol! Apparently that's the thing to do now! :P You've got an exciting journey ahead of you. You'll be amazed how everything falls into place as you start making little changes in your life. Make sure you stay focused on the big picture and remember that lasting changes take time to make, it's not going to happen at once. Good luck! I'll be rooting for you!
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